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so much self hate, so much sadness

all bottled up with the lid on tight. until nights like this where i fall apart

— 2 weeks ago

i’m numb to any and all emotion

i want to feel again

and i’m scared by how desperate i am

— 2 weeks ago

9 days clean

starting to feel that temptation again

I have known this lifestyle and i know it is bankrupt

turn to Him

— 7 months ago

let-me-christmas-in-pieces:

holyswagbatman:

umfag:

naturesafterthought:

iraffiruse:

#justjesusythings

We’re all going to hell

this post might be the best thing ive seen on here

I’m dying

Well

I laughed

(via not-enjoying-high-school)

— 7 months ago with 431619 notes
Thoughts

warning: this will ramble. read at your own discretion

At timberlee last year one topic the guys spoke on was the importance of living in community for a Christian. So I resolved, right then, that come sophomore year I would get plugged in. August rolled around and with it came school and I did exactly that- our school’s Christian group, grace on campus, is an awesome thing. I go to every bible study and every event and prayer group every morning before school. I’m completely plugged in.

So my only major goal for the past almost six months is fulfilled. Thats the real problem… I dont know where to aim from here. I have no idea what God has for 2014. I could make some guesses but all they amount to are shots fired into the dark.

I dont know where to go. I ALWAYS KNOW WHERE TO GO. See the problem? I’m not just scared, I’m terrified by the future. There are millions upon millions of potential directions He could take me in.

Right now, my faith isn’t shaken by atheists or bullies or authorities. Its being shaken by itself

Imagine the title of a movie gradually floating onto the screen from the side. Now imagine me on top of one letter, trying to understand that letter. I dont even understand that there are multiple letters, or words, or that everything fits together perfectly or that everything is moving. I wish i could just zoom out and see the bigger picture, but i can’t. Just need to trust Him that there is one.

— 7 months ago
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Its really difficult to zoom out

to see the bigger picture

everything that is going on right now is happening for a purpose

the really tricky part is understanding it

— 8 months ago

School starts tomorrow, and this year more than before i want to try to be seen. Not in the showy, attention-getting way that we first think about when we use the words “being seen.” Here is a good example of what I mean. In his book, Nudge, Leonard Sweet tells this story:

Many decades ago some men were panning for gold in the state of Montana. The prospectors organized themselves into an informal cooperative and agreed up front that if they should strike gold they would tell no one about their find.
    After weeks of hard panning and digging, one of them found an unusual stone. Breaking it open, they were excited to see that it contained gold. Soon the prospectors discovered an abundance of the precious metal. They began shouting “We’ve found it! We’ve found gold! We’ve struck it rich!”
    They then proceeded to go to a nearby town for additional supplies. Before leaving camp, they reminded each other of the pledge of absolute secrecy. While they were in town, none of them breathed a word about their good fortune. However, when they were getting ready to return to camp, they were horrified to discover several hundred of the local townsmen preparing to follow them. And when they asked who had revealed the secret of their discovery, the answer came: “No one had to. Your faces showed it.”

How do you wish to be seen this year, ross? What will your friends, teachers, and classmates see in me?

— 1 year ago
"We’ve been oceans apart, but You part oceans to be with me"
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— 1 year ago with 2 notes
The Complex Life of a Church Janitor.: Jesus would have gay friends. →

churchjanitor:

I have been asked about this issue many times. Sometimes I answer privately with my thoughts, but I often avoid this issue because I know that people have strong and varied opinions about the subject. This post is my attempt to address living as Christ in the world. These words are not intended…

— 1 year ago with 357 notes

Seventy-two killed resisting gun confiscation in Boston!
Boston – National Guard units seeking to confiscate a cache of recently banned assault weapons were ambushed by elements of a Para-military extremist faction. Military and law enforcement sources estimate that 72 were killed and more than 200 injured before government forces were compelled to withdraw.

Speaking after the clash, Massachusetts Governor Thomas Gage declared that the extremist faction, which was made up of local citizens, has links to the radical right-wing tax protest movement.

Gage blamed the extremists for recent incidents of vandalism directed against internal revenue offices. The governor, who described the group’s organizers as “criminals,” issued an executive order authorizing the summary arrest of any individual who has interfered with the government’s efforts to secure law and order.

The military raid on the extremist arsenal followed wide-spread refusal by the local citizenry to turn over recently outlawed assault weapons.

Gage issued a ban on military-style assault weapons and ammunition earlier in the week. This decision followed a meeting in early this month between government and military leaders at which the governor authorized the forcible confiscation of illegal arms.

One government official, speaking on condition of anonymity, pointed out that “none of these people would have been killed had the extremists obeyed the law and turned over their weapons voluntarily.”

Government troops initially succeeded in confiscating a large supply of outlawed weapons and ammunition. However, troops attempting to seize arms and ammunition in Lexington met with resistance from heavily-armed extremists who had been tipped off regarding the government’s plans.

During a tense standoff in the Lexington town park, National Guard Colonel Francis Smith, commander of the government operation, ordered the armed group to surrender and return to their homes. The impasse was broken by a single shot, which was reportedly fired by one of the right-wing extremists.

Eight civilians were killed in the ensuing exchange.

Ironically, the local citizenry blamed government forces rather than the extremists for the civilian deaths. Before order could be restored, armed citizens from surrounding areas had descended upon the guard units. Colonel Smith, finding his forces over matched by the armed mob, ordered a retreat.

Governor Gage has called upon citizens to support the state/national joint task force in its effort to restore law and order. The governor also demanded the surrender of those responsible for planning and leading the attack against the government troops.

Samuel Adams, Paul Revere, and John Hancock, who have been identified as “ringleaders” of the extremist faction, remain at large.

And this fellow Americans, is how the American Revolution began, April 20, 1775.

On July 4th, 1776 these same extremists signed the Declaration of Independence, pledging to each other and their countrymen their lives, fortunes, and sacred honor. Many of them lost everything, including their families and their lives over the course of the next few years.

Lest we forget…







Let us not forget!

— 1 year ago with 6 notes
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